So those emails I alluded to in my last post? The ones I really wanted to receive? I don’t think they’re coming.
I know, I know. “Maddie, anything can happen at any time.”
Sure. Anything can happen at any time. I could have gotten that life-changing email in October 2017, I could have gotten it this morning. A year and a half spent working out in the gym, studying decades of source material, building a badass resume to prove why I’m the best, and I’ve essentially been ghosted. Professionally ghosted after falling hard for a job that I would have dropped everything and moved halfway across the world for.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ll be on a plane tomorrow if the opportunity presents itself. But a series of recent events suggests that it won’t be happening.
So whats next for Maddie Hammond, the girl who once earned the nickname “Princess God”?
Its summer, and I’ve always been a summer girl. I’ve always defined my life by what happens in the summertime. The biggest example? In the summer of 2008, I actively changed my personality. That isn’t a joke. It was a turning point in my life, a time I needed to shine in my own way in order to live the future I wanted. I was fifteen, and the choices I made regarding how I treated others and myself ultimately led to the best years (summers) of my life so far. I believed in myself, and as a result, I went from bullied little nerd to award-winning iconic summer camp counselor.
So, I’m going to change things up a little bit this summer. Flip to the next chapter in the story that is my life. Stop playing a game that I don’t even want to win. Focus a little less on cartoon characters, and a lot more on me. Work on projects that will ultimately lead me to signing my own name in autograph books. And get this stupid dark dye out of my hair. Thats whats next.
From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU to everyone who has been supporting my summer project, Camp Stories. Writing the script for a podcast has been an artistic challenge, as well as a very inexpensive form of personal therapy. It is so cool to make something all by myself, and even cooler to hear that I have an audience who is enjoying it. Holding myself to a production schedule might be what is holding me together right now. Camp Stories will take me through mid-August, by which time I hope to have a few more projects up and running.
I’m focusing on projects that will help me grow as an artist, and give me a wide range of experiences. The key word for this season is differentiate. Set myself up as an incomparable entertainer. Learn from my artistic heroes, and chart my own course. Explore different ways of telling stories. Make new things. Take control of my personal narrative, take away any reason to get lost in the shuffle. Do awesome shit. Make people smile. Write “Maddie Fucking Hammond” in neon lights, so that no one dares to get me confused with someone else.
So lets toast to a new season of life, a kick ass summer of using my own voice. I’m glad you’re along for the ride. To quote one of those heroes of mine, Adam Lambert, “I’m here for your entertainment“. That’s one promise I’ll always keep.